It's ironic to use that as an example, but have you noticed that there isn't any class to being a woman anymore? Everyone is on OF, more power to them but it's so... mainstream. It used to be scandalous and hush hush. Being called a slut was an insult, now it's a compliment. Older guys sense I have interest in them and they're quick to throw around the term "sugar baby/daddy", it's honestly cringey and repulsive. Even slutty outfits are trending, women are wearing lingerie out in the street to run errands, skirts and pants have faux thong strings stitched into the design. It's such a turn off to me.

The old Playboy bunnies had fun. They didn't need to be smart or use it as a platform to market their repackaged makeup line or their podcast. They were sexy but kept it tasteful. I aspired to that (whether that’s admirable or not is up for discussion). Nowadays, there’s no glamour. I could make the argument that there aren't men like Hugh around either. He had a vision and creativity. Not a morally sound guy but he created and sustained an empire. There’s no "cream of the crop" anymore. Birkins are practically a dime a dozen.

Don't get me started on the VS Fashion Show. There were a few fantastic performances, models and nice pieces but after 6 years, that's all the came up with. I miss the vanity, the controversy, the heart and soul 😭.

Maybe it's my preference but the oversexualization of everything is so off-putting. I love some skin and cheeks but when everyone is doing the same thing, it loses it's impact. I can't say if this rings true for men but I know I can't be the only woman feeling like this (and I'm bi!). Please discuss this with me, my idealized fantasy world needs company. If I were to add some spice into my life, while keeping my reputation in tact, ooo, I like that as a starter - make that your subject line.

If I were to add some spice into my, while keeping my reputation in tact, I'd start dancing on the weekends. That kind of dancing. I already have the pole, so I'd start simply. Work half, day shifts on the weekends. If it goes well, full day shift. Then a night shift for Sunday. Then Saturday, throw in a week day and coast until I can move out.

If that wasn’t my taste, shift to cart girl at a country club. Realistically, that’s where I'd actually start but dancing sounds more fun and I hate service jobs :'). Anyway, can't really screw that up. This would work for networking, less so with the customers and more with the coworkers. They'll notice my work ethic and call me if a gig comes up. Serve the right people and they'll want to put me in a more refined environment. Eventually working myself into the right social circle.

Take a shot at modeling. The have anyone on the VS runway, can it really be that hard. Hardly breaking 5' works against me but being compared to Chloe Bailey balances the scale. Besides, commercial modeling with ups have more readily available opportunities anyway. A few days every couple of months will be slow going but getting signed to a label should help with traveling, networking and placement, being dolled up all the time and in shape as a work requirement doesn't hurt either.

This is long enough, let's get to messaging.