Growing up, I remember when shows like The Bad Girls Club, The Girls Next Door and Jersey Shore were on tv. Can't forget the suggestive late night commercials for the naughty phone lines either. The earliest iteration of daddy kink was presented to me in the form of a fan written story from some fandom. As much as you could say times have changed, there’s still an undercurrent of overt sexuality and debauchery in the forefront of society. It's left a lasting impact that I've tried to ignore.

I don't want to get too explicit though. I used to know an older man, we corresponded with the Daddy dynamic in mind. He was naturally dominant and that brought out my natural submissiveness. Our dirty messages riled the other up, but we also had civil discussions: he’d lecture and advise me on my future, I'd keep him company as he worked overtime, it was a good match. Rare but appreciated. We cared for each other beyond the orgasms but what sort of future could a married man have with a woman half his age? I'll tell you: none. It was enjoyable as it lasted though. Maybe it was my predilection for the perverse but older, capable, career-driven men do it for me. It's taboo but boundaries are respected so life can go on for both of us without issue. Sure, he unloaded a lot more loads than he did with wifey but the marriage stayed in tact so no worries on that end. You'll have to bring your A-game and pull your weight to arouse me, too.

A particularly kink? Lifestyle? I enjoyed discussing was bimbofication. I'm very cerebral so it's hard to give instructions as to why or what about this tickles my fancy. A lot of the "instructions" I've been given over the years has just been plain impractical. It's not arousing being told what I should do or how I should act. I like the idea of discussing what it look like for me or how I'd embrace it. I work full time, I'm not in the position to have a toy in me or masturbate at work, it's not something I can do. If we were to discuss clothing choices and for example: ditch the slacks once a week, put on a full face of makeup, a skirt and tights, that’s more manageable. I'm much more into the transformation aspect and how that would feel. Clothes play a role but I can't wear lingerie to work. I can't get implants but I can wear a push-up bra. Reasonable choices like that are something I can do.

Or if we take it a step further and mix in traditional relationships, I get dolled up and go somewhere like the country club to introduce myself to older men. Trade my youth, give up dating guys my age and offer myself up to some business exec looking for his second marriage. The mental impact of making that choice, even if it's hypothetical and we're just playing with the idea for masturbatory sake, that I'd be into. He didn't propose but I matched and spoke with this older man and he laid his cards on the table: he expressed that he wanted someone to help raise his kids and keep him stable as he already went through one divorce. I politely declined but I wonder if I had said yes and started dating him regularly, would we have clicked? How would've have proposed and what would the rest of my life look like?

Ciao for now x