Shame is a uniquely human emotion. It's not like arousal, which is a feeling even livestock feel. Shame is different. At it's core, it requires both an understanding of the expectations on how a person "should" behave and the self recognition to realize how poorly you live up to those expectations. Most people hate that disgust in the pit of their stomach, that aching pain that comes from knowing they're not good enough. So they avoid it, and they lead respectable lives as a result.

But for some broken souls, the feeling doesnt stop at their stomach. It aches perhaps a bit farther down, with a faint tingle of something else. Maybe they manage to uphold the facade of a respectable life in public, but in the moments when they're finally alone with themselves, the fascade falls away and they're forced to confront the truth; that deep down they are the person they're ashamed of, and worse yet, it turns them on. The question is, should you turn your back on the feeling you know are bad for you, or lean into them?

I'm interested in role playing across from someone who understands this charecter. Maybe you're my daughter's friend and I can tell you're struggling with self confidence. Maybe you're an employee of mine that I take an interest in. My prefernce is for slice of life stories, rather than overly fantastical ones. My demeanor is caring perceptive at first, before I start to understand you and exert control. My relevant kinks are: humiliation through introspection, training and tasks, orgasm control, body writing, rule following and routines.

If you're interested in exploring this scenario, or if you feel drawn to this dynamic, contact me via Reddit chat. Provide me your gender, age, a brief description and what triggers you to feel shamefully aroused. Introspective and articulate responses are prioritized. Expect slow responses while we learn each other.