Hey! Ive been feeling a bit bored lately, and for me being bored usually results in me being horny. I am looking for someone to chat with, mainly on the topic of Findom. Two things first; Im a sub, and I prefer chatting with dominant people, and I am not looking for any actual financial exchange. I will go into some of my experiences as a finsub in this post, and I want to hear about your experiences (if you have any), about your thoughts on what I did or didnt do, and I want to exchange fantasies. Can be just for today, but I am open to longer conversations too if the vibe fits.

Ill give you a rough outline of my finsub experience, we can go into more detail later. I have fairly severe social anxiety, so I tend to keep my relationships online, I dont go out too much if I dont have to. So its not really a surprise that I "met" my last dom online too. Roughly three years ago we started exchanging messages and fairly quickly got into a dynamic where he controlled a lot of aspects about my life, at first mostly just my masturbation habits and sex life (what little of that there was at least), over time that expanded to my clothes, diet, behaviour and so on. That went on for about a year and a half, got progressively more intense and at some point the topic of findom came up. I had initially set that as a limit, I knew the fantasy turned me on but I always figured Im smart enough to not just give away my money for little to nothing in return. But as it often is, limits can shift and I allowed my finances to be involved too. First he just controlled my expenses, gave me a budget or I had to ask him for bigger purchases.

A few months later, after he kept pushing for it, sometimes subtly with just small remarks, sometimes more openly, I decided that giving him a bit of money couldnt hurt. He did say it would make his orgasm feel much better, and I wanted him to feel good, and at the time I was confident enough that it would only be once and that I could resist doing it again. What I didnt account for was the feeling I got after I sent that money. It wasnt like a whole lot, but still, those waves of regret, shame, guilt, but also humiliation (which is an absolute addiction of mine) that went through my body had me so insanely turned on, more than I ever was before. So I guess you can imagine that it didnt stop there, and that kink, like all the others, escalated too. We arent in contact anymore, but Ive lost track of how much money I sent to him in the year or so that I was a finsub to him.

Its hard to describe the feeling it always gave me. Like, I didnt even know what he looked like or even his real name, and he definitely never cared much for me beyond what I could provide for him, pleasure, money or otherwise. He was cruel, loved hurting me and seeing me struggle at his orders, he loved it when his influence made my life harder and I hated myself for how much I loved it and, at times, him.

Anyway, that should suffice as a quick introduction to my experiences, theres more detail to it of course, but its a good place to start a conversation off of I think. Oh and as I mentioned humiliation already, if you message me (assuming you are dominant), the fact that I am a pathetic sub/slave and inferior to you can definitely shine through in your messages too. I dont care much for being respected or treated kindly, so if you feel like being mean or cruel, dont hold back.