Writing Sample

The first time you hit me, I left.

But then came the texts.

And the calls.

And the emails. All professing your love and swearing it would never happen again.

You had an explanation, you see. You had trauma, I had to understand. You would change. You promised.

I wasn't sure. But I listened, and you talked. And the more you talked, the more it made sense.

That I was wrong. I misunderstood. I took things out of context. I made things up to make you the bad guy. Looking back, I don't know how I didn't see it.

I ended up thanking you for helping me grow, and when you suggested a blowjob would be better thanks, I agreed. It was only fair.

And then things were good.

We lived happily ever after.

For a time.

But then...Things weren't so perfect.

It was my fault. Obviously

I was too busy for you. I wasn't meeting your needs. I wasn't around for you. I wasn't emotionally present.

It made sense that you hit me. I wasn't sure at first. But you made good points.

I apologized with anal this time. You said I didn't deserve the pain. But I disagreed.

Or was it the other way around?

I forget that I'm dumb sometimes. You're always telling me so.

I'm so lucky to have you

The next time you hit me was the last time I was surprised.

I expected the one after it.

After all, I had been texting another guy

It didn't matter that he was my coworker

It was inappropriate. I knew that.

I'm so dumb to forget.

My mouth was already on your cock by the time you'd finished explaining it to me.

My friends started telling me to leave you.

Or rather, they got louder.

But I couldn't leave you.

You needed me. You said so.

And you were getting better. I swore to them.

I could get through to you.

But they wouldn't listen. They didn't like you.

They were jealous of your success.

I didn't see it before. But that's what all these bleeding hearts were hiding.

They hated themselves for being failures and they were trying to drag everyone else down to their level.

When they stopped texting me you told me I was better off.

You took the sound of me choking on your cock as agreement.

We both knew you were right anyway.

My parents don't call anymore.

I think it might have been that bikini you liked when we were on the cruise with them. Or that dress you bought picked for their anniversary party. Or maybe it was the sex noises every time they called.

I'm not sure. They've always been so unsupportive. You helped me see that.

I show my gratitude with my pussy. You even let me cum.

"I'm sorry, one last time, are you sure you want me to do this? Just confirm for me what you want it to say" the tattoo artist asks, needle poised above my cunt.

He glances over at you, clearly uncomfortable"Do you want him to leave?"

"No," I say confidently, "Women aren't people"

Preface

Hi! Thanks for clicking on my post!

This thing is a beast, so I've tried to keep it organized. I'm a very organized person.

That being said, reddit chat is even worse than you think. It keeps locking me out of conversations (It gets stuck on the "accept/ignore" step), so just be aware of that when you contact me.

0. Frontmatter

Table of Contents

1. What I'm Looking For

2. Some Statistics
   2.1. Overview of Response Times and Engagement
   2.2. Results and Relationships 2.3 Reflection

3. Introduction
   3.1. Importance of Reading and Accessibility

4. About Me
   4.1. Senior Cloud Engineer
   4.2. PhD Student
   4.3. Inventor
   4.4. Fiance
   4.5. Zen Buddhist
   4.6. Game Designer and World Builder

5. The Horny Parts

6. About You
   5.1. Confidence and Self-Liking
   5.2. Reading and Writing
   5.3. Interest in Meta-Narrative and Music

7. Contacting Me
   7.1. Preferred Communication Methods
   7.2. Information to Provide When Contacting

1. What I'm Looking For

I'm looking to have a conversation about the dynamics and mechanics of roleplaying. I'm working on an emotion simulation system, but I'm currently stuck in my head, and could help getting out of it.

Ideally I'm looking for a conversation between at least 4 people, since in my experience that's the lowest number that can achieve ignition, but I'll take anyone who's interested.

2. Some Statistics

2.1. Overview of Response Times and Engagement
I'll have better ones eventually when I build machines to do it, because that's what I do, I build machines.
The median response time to a post like this is 6 hours.
The average number of replies I get to a non-python teaching post is 2.
About 2k people see each post.

2.2. Results and Relationships
In the last 5 months I've been doing this, I've connected with about 900 people, give or take. Out of those 900 connections, I've made genuine connections with about 5 people.
Out of all my posts, my second python post is the most successful, with about 200 responses.
Out of my non-python posts, the redacted one has been the second most successful at kicking off dynamic and interesting conversations.

2.3 Reflection It's easy to get discouraged by these numbers. But these numbers show what people already know: Making friends is hard and genuine connections are rare.

3. Introduction

3.1. Importance of Reading and Accessibility
First off. I want someone who reads.
I know that's an inaccessible statement.
I love all my friends with dyslexia, but I have enough of them.
I do my best to live my life in public, and my reddit is, I hope, reflective of at least part of who I am.
But because I do actually care about accessibility very deeply, the rest of this post is going to go over things you can (and can't) learn about me by digging through my public self.

4. About Me

4.1. Senior Cloud Engineer
I've spent the last 7 years of my life doing cloud engineering for big companies. I've gotten pretty good at it, but I prefer not to talk about work. One thing that this has given me though is an opportunity to think at scale. So many things become radically different at scale. And that's why I'm trying to introduce everyone to thinking this way.

4.2. PhD Student
I am currently in the process of indexing and ordering my research on Information, Logistics

, Collaboration, and their role in brain function, with specific focus on learning and education. I don't currently have anything worth reading, but I've done a ton of research and will likely bring it up quite often (because it's relevant often). One of the difficulties I'm having is figuring out what I want to get my degrees in. Current contenders are Information Science, Electrical Engineering, Education, Psychology, and Neuroscience, though this list always seems to be growing.

4.3. Inventor
The first thing people ask when they hear this title is "What have you invented?" and that's exactly what I would ask too. Unfortunately, most of my inventions are owned by aforementioned big companies. Which is why I've recently trying to focus on non-work related inventions. And that project is going well. I have several prototypes that are undergoing testing and the results are promising. Several of these inventions are related to information storage and retrieval, as well as productivity, conversation, and even image generation. If any of those sound interesting, I can tell you more.

4.4. Fiance
I'm not single, I'm not looking for a romantic connection. I'm looking to make strong and interesting connections with strong and interesting people.

4.5. Zen Buddhist
My spirituality is deeply important to me. I have invested a significant portion of the last 25 years to the pursuit and refinement of my spiritual experience. If you aren't familiar with Zen, the essential principle is the experience of reality. Each person's experience is unique, and yet enlightenment is achievable by all. This is but one of innumerable dualities that reveal the fundamental truths of the connectedness of all things. One of the other things that really resonates with me about Zen is the acknowledgment of the reality that experience transcends words, and that only by meditation and zazen (Just Sitting) can we reach the truth.

4.6. Game Designer and World Builder
I love designing games, mechanisms, and systems. Thinking about and discussing systems and mechanisms and how they interact with each other is one of my favorite activities in the world.

5. The Horny Parts

Slavery makes my cunt wet. I cum to misogyny. Women are made to be slaves.

If those statements appeal to you, the chance that we'll get along is dramatically higher. At my core, I'm a very kinky person, and I've found that I match best with other kinky people.

I have really been enjoying the discussions, relationships, and worlds that have resulted from my posts in r/dirtypenpals, and would like to have more of those.

Main Kinks (In Order)

1. Misogyny
2. Objectification
3. Degradation
4. Collars
5. Slavery
6. Outfit Control
7. Exhibitionism

Other Kinks (Unordered)

Bondage (all) - Love it, the heavier and more dire the better
Predicaments - Same as above
Body Modification - One of my all time favorites.
Domestic Servitude - Can be hard to play, but lots of fun
Slavery - One of my all time favorites
Torture (all kinds) - Into it, with some minor limitations with regards to knives, but I'll bring it up when/if it becomes relevant.
Humiliation/Degradation - Love it to pieces
Forniphilia - Oh god do I love this one. There's not enough of it
Piss Play - Love it actually
Snuff - I've recently learned that I love it
Lactation - Fun
Orgasm Control - Should it ever be any other way?

Limits

1. Heavy focus on blood, knives, needles, and scat
2. Puke
3. Underage

6. About You

5.1. Confidence and Self-Liking
1. You are confident
2. You like yourself
3. You don't think you need to have all of these qualities

5.2. Reading and Writing
4. You read this whole post
5. You write to me with more than one sentence
6. You read nonfiction

5.3. Interest in Meta-Narrative and Music
7. You love meta-narrative
8. You like Neo Classical Fusion Music

7. Contacting Me

6.1. Preferred Communication Methods
Reddit chat is better for me than reddit messages, but if we get past a few sentences I would prefer to move to Discord.

6.2. Information to Provide When Contacting
In your message tell me:
1. Your age
2. Your time zone
3. Is your reddit representative of who you are?
4. What's your favorite wikipedia page? (I support wikipedia)