We met on Reddit 3 years ago. Something about his posts, and the potent masculinity that enveloped them, compelled me to message him and that’s where my undoing began. Meanwhile, as I fell deeper, he was out fucking other women and messaging with dozens more. I hated every moment of it. I wanted every bit of his energy and attention for myself. I found it intoxicating.

But we’ve since moved in together and that power of his has completely transformed me.

He is magical. There are things he’s done to me that no one else could possibly do. The way he builds sexual tension throughout our interactions and how, when he is done with me, I lay there completely overwhelmed and unable to even speak. Lately, I sometimes catch myself fantasizing about him creating those kinds of experiences with others. I get weak at the thought of him using his power to transfix women like he used to. That feeling makes me both bashful and extremely excited.

As much as I might try to resist it, I can’t help but be turned on when he tells me about the things he’s done with women. How he’s enabled them to connect with their desire on almost a primal level and to orgasm with an intensity they’ve never experienced. Even on first dates - he’s practically a stranger yet they give in to him and before they know it they’re wrapped around his finger and come back asking for more. I want that for you. I want to see it unfold.

I don’t particularly want to be too involved. But one scenario that excites me is how he could use us against each other for his own pleasure. Pushing us both deeper into submission as we interact both with each other and with him. I love the idea of being pushed even further to the point that I feel completely broken and watching you break with me. And then we get to be put back together, better than we were before.

I also like the idea of just watching. Watching you allowing yourself to let go, to submit to him. Seeing how he fucks with your head the way he fucks with mine. The way he pushes you to dig deep into your sexuality and explain what you’re feeling, only to use your words to make you even needier. The way he gives you two choices that are equally humiliating and lets you pick. And somehow makes it feel like both the humiliating choices were your own idea, like they were things you secretly wanted to do anyway. The way he gets inside my head turns me on so much, and I crave to see his power exerted on others.

The things that he brings to the table are an ability to communicate and connect with anyone. He can find the dark places a woman keeps hidden away and make it feel like they’ve just stumbled upon them on accident, when in reality it was orchestrated from the very moment he met them. In our relationship, he does the hard work of making me feel small and weak in the best way possible. Doing the things that make our life better and moving it forward. And lastly, he carries heavy boxes with one hand that I can’t even lift.

We’re both white collar professionals and so we appreciate someone who is educated and has some life experience. You’re probably 30 and are looking for a depth that seems elusive on Reddit. Perhaps you’ve felt that before in a previous relationship or encounter, or maybe you’re looking to feel something that you know has to be out there but haven’t found yet. Regardless, you’re not looking for a partner here, but rather a way to reconnect with who you really are and what you really want. You’re ready to see how that changes you.

If any of this resonates, I’d love to hear from you.