I'm sure there is a specific term that would define a man that's confident in his masculine identity, takes charge in his daily life and is flexible in his private life to thoroughly enjoy serving a woman when she wants to take control. There is undoubtedly a power imbalance at play however, it shouldn't be so rare that I'm the only one seeking it.

There is nothing dominant about my personality, hobbies or lifestyle. I don't lift, I'm not in a managerial position at work, I get my hair done every month and always need more closet space. I'm not obsessed with pink but I don't shy away from it. I love having an excuse to dress up. Lookbooks, self-improvement and modeling vlogs are my hobby.

Yet, the attention I draw on dating apps is far from the attention I desire. I swipe left on the adorable, soft boys because I know if I swipe right, my message will consist of calling them cute and telling them how I want them on their knees, looking up at me. I assume they would reject that attention anyway because it could be emasculating or insulting to some men. Yes, I want you to be a good boy but not for you to lose your manly instinct. You should behave when I want you to.

It's uncomfortable to balance the sensual balance inside with my demure demeanor and desire to still be treated like a lady. I want a man who will open doors for me, enjoy my feminimity, and let me get on top when I feel like it. He should be wearing the pants in the relationship and some days his cock ring will on underneath those pants.

Perfect segue into bimbofication with dignity. The airheaded, non-monagamous, sex-obsessed stereotype isn't my ideal. To me, a bimbo is a woman that takes care of herself because her man understands that her presence is a reward. Maybe he gets hard because she makes other men hard, envious and other woman pa,e in comparison. Not to get too barbaric, but she is his property. He's enhanced her as he sees fit, whether it is through minor surgery and treatments, pioneering her career, maintaining the house and social status or embracing motherhood with grace while remaining sensual. She keeps a diet and exercise regimen that he approves of. It's an equal and agreed upon interest that goes beyond sexual. Boundaries and comfort are respected.

Private messages are open. It's early in the work day at the time of posting so hopefully I'll be entertained by some like-minded men later in the day.