I know that usually when people talk about this topic its the other way around, but women like me can be addicted to porn too. And I simultaneously love and hate it. On the one hand, I know it seriously damages my life, I slack off at work and university, meet friends way less, barely leave my house, and I know all that isnt exactly healthy, and I hate that I cant stop. On the other hand though, I dont even want to stop. I love how good it feels, edging the whole day, mindlessly staring at clip after clip after clip until its dark outside and I fall asleep with my hand still at my pussy..

I do still scrape by, I make enough money to live, I get through classes, but its the bare minimum, and its not due to a lack of intelligence, more so due to me just not applying myself. The question is, who are you in my life? You could e a long-distance friend I have, someone who is sufficiently disconnected from my daily life that I can trust you with this admittedly embarrassing secret. I am open to other ideas too. What is important though is that you should act like my friend, like you want whats best for me, but in reality all you want is to make me sink deeper, until there really is no coming back. And deep down we both know that that is what I want too, Im just too scared to admit, and still too sane to commit. But with a bit of gaslighting, convincing arguments and lies and some pressure that can change easily, I was never someone who offered much resistance to anything anyway.

If you are interested, please send me a message or chat with a few sentences of information on yourself and why you decided to reply to me, what was appealing about this idea to you. Im looking forward to your message! Oh and I am open to men or women, even though I would love to belong to a woman for once.