Its late at night and i stare at my screen, the bright electric display piercing my eyes as i stare longingly at it. Unable to stop myself from checking messages for the umpteenth time in fifteen minutes, echoing the hundreds if not thousands of identical checks and attempts in the past three days.

Message read. 6:46 am. Three days ago.

I stare at my phone, wishing to throw it away, to douse the blasted machine in cyanide, as if doing so would somehow translate to the pumping organ in my chest. As if I could free myself from her.

I dont.

I can't even bring myself to close the app that had become where more and more of my life is spent, where my life with her has flourished from the tiniest seed. I resist, for a second longer this time, looking at the message I had sent. At the words that seemed to mock me with their plain robotic text.

Message read. 6:46 am. Three days ago.

I know what I want.

I want her.

Instead I move to my own contacts. People in my life that I know, that I've met in person. Not some alien entity who has crept her way into my heart and soul with words on paper and a voice distorted with telephone wire.

I scroll down, not seeking anything in particular but still looking for some distraction. A name catches my eye and, almost reflexively, I tap it, shooting off a message so fast that lightning itself would be jealous, too fast for the emptiness in my soul to shake from its reverie.

"You up?"

Hey there reddit, I'm hoping to find a partner who knows she's not my one and only. Who knows that she's only called around when a distraction is needed. I'm looking for a partner who can give me more than just one liners. I'm not asking for lit or even semi lit, just someone I can feel like I'm matching an effort with. My kinks are various and multiple, but some key ones are dom/sub themes (myself as the dom), rough sex, light pain, huge cocks, lots of cum, oral anal, rimming, bdsm, lactation, and toys