I've tried for a very long time to put my finger on the name of this kink. Sure, there are plenty of words that are adjacent. Humiliation. Degradation. Embarrassment. Shame. But none of them quite fit the level of emotional cruelty. After thinking for a while, I've figured out a couple of words that fit the bill better. Would you like to know what they are? **Despair and Hopelessness.** I want to watch a woman break down. Physically, mentally, emotionally, spiritually. I want to ruin *every* aspect of her life. Not just her fuck holes. I want to be a puppeteer, pulling every string like a societal garrote. Adding insult to injury, twisting the emotional knife until every waking moment isn't just painful, it's *despair*.
I'm hoping to find a kindred spirit who, in their own twisted way, *wants* this in a roleplay . A gender traitor who seeks to play the role of a young woman in your downward spiral to misery. Someone who craves unhappiness, shame, misogyny, shame, rejection, and pain at every turn of the page. I'm looking for a long term, highly detailed, and worldbuilding story where your character is cursed with the worst luck imaginable, and I want to stack the deck. Of course, there are plenty of creative ways to do this. None of the following are explicitly required, but I hope to impart the general vibe that I'm trying to cultivate.
Pregnancy. Whether a desired conception or not, pregnancy can do more than just inconvenience. If you're having the worst day of your life, all those negative emotions will be cranked to eleven. Especially if you're waddling around with an unwanted belly of triplets. Pregnancy is a perfect storm; a physical, financial, and emotional shackles that will make life worse. A scarlet letter that everyone can see, especially when you're too poor to afford maternity clothes. Hear that knock at the door? It's the bank, and they don't care about how you're struggling to pay the mortgage.
Poverty. Losing your job, being conned out of your savings, maybe just outright robbery. Or all of the above, at various points. Money makes the world go round, and you're going to have to fight for every scrap or coin that rolls your way. Whatever poor character we decide to craft for this story, you won't have the luxury of the Dollar menu at McDonald's. Maybe you can offer yourself to the local cokeheads behind the dumpster in exchange for scraps? I'm sure they'll be polite, gentle, and respect your boundaries...
Of course, where would a prompt like this be without rape? The ultimate act of force, of taking, of violence. A stain that can't be scrubbed away. A violation of the body and soul, infecting a mind with a virus of memories for a lifetime. But that's not the whole story. Maybe it's what *starts* the downward spiral, the first domino in a sequence of bad days, ultimately leaving you homeless and pregnant and sobbing in a gutter. I don't have to play a single mastermind or evil individual machinating your demise, maybe the first sexual assault is just the beginning of a *very* unlucky week. And I'll give every assailant a unique method of inflicting their will upon your body.
I want the whole *world* against you. Maybe your car breaks down, and it's stolen by the people who offer to help. So you have to walk home in 100 degree heat, opening the door to a husband who's balls deep in the ass of your younger sister... on your wedding anniversary. This is a world where small acts of kindness will probably be lies. Family members will discover your most taboo kinks. That piss-drinking porn video you made for $500 when you were in college? It just went viral in your friend group. I want to play God, string together the worst possible day you can imagine, and that onto your Google Calendar until you're not a person anymore. Humiliation is a softball in this roleplay prompt.
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My preferred platform is discord for organization's sake and sharing of images, but I can use Reddit's DM system if needed. I'm looking for a long-term partner who's okay with detailed and asynchronous responses! I'll be boarding a flight soon, but please feel free to send an orange envelope if this post is still up!