I never really had much of a chance. My height topped out at 5’8” and my body refused to grow any muscles or hair that wasn’t on the top of my head. I was stuck looking like a twink, but unfortunately I was straight.

Overtime, I found myself in a strange situation. My porn habits had gotten very specific—it was always interracial with a black guy and a white girl. I tried to rationalize it by saying I liked the “contrast” or whatever excuses there are. The aggressive attitudes, muscles, and big cocks seemed to bring every girl on screen to shaking, sweating orgasms, way better than any I ever had. But I eventually accepted that I wasn’t imagining myself doing the fucking, I was the one getting fucked by the black men, on my knees with a cock in my mouth or bent over while my hair is pulled and ass slapped.

Some of the flatter, skinnier girls even looked a bit like me if you squinted—no tits and a tight butt that fits in a big, dark hand. And if you look like a girl, dress like a girl, act like a girl, and suck BBC like a girl, that means things are still totally straight, right?

At this point I’ve given in. I have a secret closet of sexy clothes and makeup, (black) dildos to practice with, and lots of fantasies & stories to share. I’m open to talking about this topic, white “bois” with black men, or role playing something as well. I’m open to anyone—men, women, and NBs alike are encouraged to reach out if you like what you read :)

Some kinks (not all required, just to give you an idea): Cock worship, BBC, big cocks, size difference, interracial/raceplay, slurs, hair-pulling, spanking, slapping, anal, messy sex, sloppy blowjobs, deep throat, bimbos, MILFs, sexy/slutty outfits, high heels, feminization, (semi) public sex and exhibitionism, light bondage, gangbangs, cum, choking, chastity (for me), drug play, “forced” bi, being filmed, femdom

Limits: Hyper/unrealistic sizes, degradation, rimming, a2m, BNWO, scat/piss, blood, underage, animals, heavy bondage, violence

My kinklist is here if you’d rather browse it that way.