Lately I have been drawn to this sub more and more so I decided to make an account and see what comes of posting. I'm a little nervous to post, though, so let me know if I mess up.

I don't know if it's my hormones lately or what but all I have thought about as I get off has been being bred. That moment of unstoppable events, where he releases within me and our lives are forever changed. It's as intimate as it is powerful or panicking. It lives in my head these days.

Sometimes I have dreams about being married off to a man who is kind to me, but has no leniency on his need for heirs. I'm taken each night, and it grows to be something I crave. In slice of life this could be that I need a visa and you want a family, but you insist I must be pregnant before we marry. For fantasy this could be a princess sold off to a warlord to create peace for the kingdom. I'd even be open to fantasy races there. What I seek out of this side of the fantasy is a dominant man who isn't cruel or abusive, but will be taking what he feels is his to take and is the best for everyone, I'll see that soon enough.

Then, sometimes I have dreams that we are both forced to marry as we've grown too old to be single royals at 20 or more. There's a breeding advisor that demands we commence and watches, even instructs or positions us. The amount of force in that varies, as does how my partner reacts. Today I've been thinking about my partner being terrified, unable to get hard. While I'm terrified too, I swallow that to help him focus and we fumble through incredibly awkward sex. What I seek on this side of the fantasy is something softer, more about awkward, mutual survival of the dark themes and learning to be what we need to be. Would we part and avoid each other or would we find ourselves clinging to the only person who seems like they might understand us? Would we clumsily attempt aftercare? Would we eventually explore each other's bodies outside of the enforced breeding times? Who would reach out first?

I swing like a pendulum from one fantasy to the other. I can't decide, will you tell me which we should do?

My kinks vary from partner to partner because I love to please. Men who are generous with their words and sharing pleasure will be at the top of my inbox. My kinklist is more green than red so just tell me what you crave and I will crave it with you.

My limits are one liners, age gapes under 20 years old, feces, vomit, blood, slob, fat, latex/suits/crawling, violence, shaming, degradation, other women touching the male character. Otherwise I am open to talking about it.