We have lived next door to each other for a while. Your husband is awful. Not abusive, just incredibly unpleasant, politically conservative, loud,opinionated. In contrast you have always been a great neighbor. A little shy but friendly. Also conservative, but not in his loud obnoxious way, involved with your church, modest in the way you dress when you are out of the house. Your daughter, in her third or fourth year of college is a lot like you, in appearance and in manner. It seems like you have both grown embarrassed by his attitude and behavior.

Despite the modest clothes you wear when you go out, I can see that you have an attractive body, petite with boobs that are large on your small frame. Occasionally I’ve seen you working in the yard in shorts and a t shirt and that has reinforced my thoughts on what you probably look like under those dresses.

Over the past year or so,you have seemed a little more talkative. We will chat over the fence sometimes. Recently your husband has been traveling for work, one of many schemes he seems to put together. But to my surprise, when he is gone you have invited me in for coffee. This has happened a few times over the past weeks. I work from home so I am usually around. My sense of it is that you are lonely. With your daughter away at college you,would like some company. I often make you laugh, which is nice. And a few times you have started to vent a little about your husband, how sick of him you are.

Most recently though things have taken a surprising turn. This started when I was in your kitchen, tv was on in the next room on mute. It looked like a movie, something on HBO maybe, and then there was a naked woman on the screen. I saw you looking over too and for some reason I apologized. You laughed, but as the scene continued you kept watching, so I did too. You asked me if I thought that woman was attractive, I said yes. And then in a much bigger surprise you asked if I had been with many women before I was married. I tried to give a diplomatic answer, but yes, a fair number (and a reasonable number since being married, my wife and I have an agreement that works for both of us). You say you have only ever been with your husband, then sigh and leave it at that, so I don’t push.

The next time I am over the conversation turns back to this topic pretty quickly. You ask about the women I’ve been with, different body types, appearances. You ask if I’d ever been to a strip club and what that is like. It is clear you have a lot of curiosity about this. Then,in another surprise you ask about porn. How do people find it on the internet? Could I give you advice on how to find it. At this point I’m still surprised by all this, but I tell you about some sites. Explain how incognito mode works on your computer, and warn that there might be things that are shocking.

And now, the most recent visit. Again, normal conversation turns back to sex. You say you have spent some time looking at porn. Some of it did surprise you, but you’ve also been enjoying it. You say that you wish you’d been able to sleep around some in your life, but you are certain you don’t know how that could ever happen. But then you tell me about a genre of porn you found, something you have been reading about. You ask me if I have ever heard of the idea of consensual-non consent.

At this point I am very surprised, very nervous, and curious where this is headed. You say that clearly you don’t want to be raped in the criminal sense, but the idea of it being completely out of your hands seems very interesting….and then you ask if this is something I might want to help with? I stammer at first, trying to make sure I heard correctly.

I ask “ you would like me to do this with you? To you?” And you nod. You say not right this minute, but soon, later in the day or tomorrow. You would message me, and you would want me to come into the house, and without saying anything, I could do anything I want. I try to to clarify what “anything” means.. And you say, anything at all, all the things you’ve seen on those porn videos you’ve been watching. A few small limits, no poop, no real pain in any lasting way.. but otherwise, anything. We work out a safe word, you suggest “crocodile” and that seems as good as any.

So now, I am waiting to hear back. And see where this goes….