Thank you for taking the time to open this post as I know it is not for everyone.

As my mind wanders during the day I can't help but fantasize about deep hidden secret desires. I frequently come one to reddit only to subscribe to cock images and trap communities. Every time I look at an image my eyes quickly log on to the thick hard veiny shaft that extends between someone's legs. It sends me back to a time when I would crossdress and show men what they wanted to see.

• Scenario 1: Someone I know, friend, family, professor, coworker, finds on reddit who I am. They secretly reveal to me in private they know about my kinks. They don't want to out me. Rather they want to use me as a toy and take every opportunity to exploit me in risky situations. This only makes me want it more.
• Scenario 2: I meet someone from a social media app. They notice my frame and how feminine I seem. They want me to take a photoshoot wearing more feminine clothes. I agree for art reasons, only to be wearing more and more revealing clothes with every outfit change. It becomes difficult for me to hide my aroused sissy clit. I am told not to hide it.
• Scenario 3: I find on reddit that someone is looking to meet at park to be sucked off. I cant resist replying. I found out it is the park next to my house. I secretly sneak out and find you only to reveal a huge hung cock that I can barely fit in my mouth. I become a regular. You realize how addicted I have become. You start to bring me outfits to wear while I suck you off. One day you take my masculine clothes and tell me to walk home in my feminine outfit you brought.

The idea of being trained, sissified, used in public and possibly by multiple people is such a kink and fetish of mine. Being told what I would be wearing and imagining it against my skin.