Take note, M4F.

Hi. I have very little expectations from this post but I thought I would post something and see what may come of it.

I'm looking for a ''date gone wrong'' type of situation.

I want to spend around 2 hours getting to know someone and do something fun - sight seeing and attractions around London perhaps.

At some point, I want someone to ''coerce'' me into going back to my hotel just to chill for a bit. I'm not from London but will be visiting soon so I'll have a hotel anyway.

As for what happens next, I will explain in a bit. It's best I explain why I want/need this.

I'm suffer from extreme body dysmorphia and anxiety. I'm in Okay shape and I know I'm good looking. This is all in my head.

In a normal situation, I'm open and confident. My issues just lie with sex. I can't bring myself to get naked in front of anyone. I also feel uncomfortable being touched. I literally go mute and run a mile! I'm fine with friendly hugs etc. This is only in a sexual context. I need someone to push my boundaries and help me get over this through rape.

So, you've got me alone and right where you want me. In a cosy hotel room, just us at last.

I'm not sure what type of person I want to meet. Maybe a soft but controlling woman to essentially ''love bomb'' me? Although I should say I'm looking for someone not overweight and someone that takes good care of her health.

Make me feel desired. Tell me this will help with my problems. Tell me you're going to make me feel good. Kiss me. Cuddle me. Tell me I have the perfect size penis and you want to make me cum over and over as you milk me dry.

But also, use me for your own pleasure. I don't want you to care what I'm thinking. Just do whatever you please with me. Keep me chained up all night. All weekend if you truly want to go there. Piss on me. Maybe me drink piss. Make me taste my own sperm. Sit on my face and get yourself off if you wish.

Just to be clear, any sexual advances make me feel so uncomfortable that what I'm consenting to right here will feel like rape regardless of what you do with me.

I would also be happy doing something with someone who also experiences extreme anxiety and body dysmorphia. Keep me blindfolded and use me to get yourself off.