I have never been a half in half out. Either I am 150% in or spiraling out of control Can you guess which one I am now. Just bought new pants and shirts (size up) because nothing fits. As I right this my heart is pounding as I ate 2 small bags of chips, snack pack of Oreos, Peanut butter crackers, a handful of pretzel thins, That was after the 2 sandwiches of pulled pork.

I dropped 50 lbs 3-4 times in my adult life with a Varity of methods. I did hit about 4 days of the carnivore diet and everything was going good until we went away on VACA, Where it spiraled. I feel like at any moment this will be it.

I asked my wife to really help me with. Not really a question here, more of a rant or cry for help. I just need to get the first week under my belt.