I'm not sure if this is the right space for this or if I'm even here seeking vindication or just venting.

I started dialysis 3 years ago, I had a horrible doctor he's the reason I'm on dialysis he also screwed up my first clinic had to go back to the hospital so they got straightened up. The clinic they finally got me settled into was for the most part great. The staff were nice friendly with the occasional bad apple. It was a nice atmosphere in the in the clinic area soft lighting the staff got loud occasionally but you know what it wasn't horrible just normal chatting. Well due to mismanagement by the owning corporation the head is shut down their clinic they had two weeks to get all of their patients transferred to other facilities. When I started this clinic I got a new nephrologist and she is wonderful she listens she seems to be caring even though it was one of her partners that I speak ill of she seemed to really care.

The end of the last October I moved over to the new clinic. When I agreed to move to this clinic I was told a chair time between 12:00 and 12:30 p.m. when I got there I was told my chair time was going to be 1:45 p.m. I wasn't happy but I had to take it. Eventually they moved me to an earlier time of 9:00 a.m. which they thought was better because it was earlier but it still wasn't the time that I was told it was supposed to be. This place is the opposite of my previous clinic it is beyond clinical. My tech only seems to occasionally pretend that he likes me in any way. I have another tack that I got more shouting match with before and so she has nothing to deal with me. what bothers me is after I get hooked up to the machine no one comes by the check on me see if I'm doing all right as far as I'm concerned as the machine malfunctions and it doesn't send the belt lock that my blood pressure dropped they wouldn't know. I brought up these issues before and all I get is attacked with hostility from the part-time for that location social worker and the barely ever there FA.

Their attitude and general lack of caring towards me is making me have to leave one of the only good doctors that I've ever had so I can switch clinics. I drive 25 to 30 minutes each way to get to this clinic because of this doctor and not because of her actions but because of the way this clinic is run I'm going to have to give her up. And that pisses me off to no end. Fortunately I know of another doctor that I saw in the hospital that seemed to be really committed to caring and I'm hoping I can get in with him. But this really sucks for me I had a lot of health issues since the ESRF diagnosis and it seems like all the good things I've had to come with this keep getting yanked away from me from other sources. And if anyone asks no I have declined to be included on the transplant list.

Like I said I don't know if this is the right place for this but I don't up anyone else is going through what I'm going through. And I really don't have anyone to talk to about it so maybe this is all this is venting.