Hey yall i am a type 1 and have been since age 11 im now 32 and idk if it matters but im female lol. So i have type 1 and then to add to that i have a fun mixed bag of mental health crap.. depression, bpd, social anxiety, anxiety, and ptsd....goodness i wish i hadnt wrote that out im truly a basket case 😂. Anyways this post is for those who share some of the same stuff especially the bpd and anxiety. Not to exclude anyone just be more relateable for me.

So with that said when my sugars go high 200 i get angry and yes im in therapy working on but i think its from how the drs have handled me for the first few yrs of the my diagnosis. Id go in and get told nothing above 150 or ill die was pretty much the convo they told me..i was 11 mind ya lol. From there itd be poke and prod at me ask a few questions up the insulin go home repeat. Well after years of trail and error found a great regular dr at the age of 15 i think and he helped us a lot with regulating and got my ac1 down from 14% to 7%. So that went on for a long time i avoided endos i was just afraid to try them again after such an awful experiance. The dr was mean as hell too. Fast forward to now ive been with my current endo for a few yrs now. Tried the pump/cgm almost killed me wasnt good at all i was having low episodes wkly and emts at my house 2x a wk if not more that went on for about 2 yrs. It was the pump an due to insurance i cant get a new one till next summer so when this was happening i was being told sorry in 4 yrs we will get ya a new one unless you wanna pay outta pocket i was like bitch im broke 😂🤦‍♀️🙃🙃. So i have just preffered manaual injections and my low epsidoes themselves have been on and off since 2017 where they get so bad i appear to be a drunken toddler. Thats another story for another time. The past 8 months ive been on my own completely in my own place after escaping a shit relationship ( bu my moms near by if soemthing happens) anyways in these 8 months ive really gotten a hold on the episodes havent had any since i want to say march. But since ive switch to manaual and not touching the insulin Fiasp ive noticed the episodes have almost stopped completely i unless i fuck up which i do my damnest not to. So now that ive given yall this excessive back story my question is any suggestions on how to handle the frustration and anger hwne im spiking? I know its my anxiety/bpd from the drs yrs ago saying itll kill me cause i know now with my current endo shes like 120-180 would be great and if ur high sometiems its okay long as its not happening often and we deff dont want you running low.....so i know 200 isnt awful once in a while but i still find myself getting so angry and same when im low often cause im really trying ive made significant diet and lifestyle changes. Im more active then ive ever been ive lost almost 100lbs in the last 5 yrs and 30 of thats in the last yr. Like im trying and now the lows are my biggest thing from the weight loss but i get more scared when low then angry so i try to stay in my range but i still feel like im failing and going to die way to young cause of this shit 🤦‍♀️. Ill take any advice but please be gentle im tryin to get support here not be lectured/yelled at. So just looking for advice or tips on how to handle the frustration with the highs and if anyone wants to suggest something thats helped them with over night lows id appreciate that as well! Thanks in advance yall!