I had been on T for 2 years but I started to hate being perceived as a cis straight guy, esp because I still relate the most to queer women and have begun to work through feelings of hating cis straight men. I feel like an imposter calling myself a lesbian tho cuz I looked like a guy.. also felt like an imposter calling myself a guy.

Even when I passed 100% I felt super uncomfortable talking to guys thinking they’d know something was off, and just remembering them “hitting on me” as a girl makes me never wanna speak to a man again tbh.

I really miss taking T already but I want more breast tissue (was never dysphoric about my chest, only people looking at it but I like it sexually) and they’re very small/saggy from T. I also don’t like the body hair and being seen as a cis guy.

But I really miss having “male” muscles and lifting on E will never be enough for me. I want to be equal to a man in strength..

I’m really dreading getting read as female too. I think it’d be ok around people I never met, but I feel a lot of dysphoria over ppl I’ve known for a while calling me female. Most of them already call me female despite me insisting for years I wasn’t, so it just feels like I’d be “admitting they were right” even though I still have gender dysphoria which makes me trans.

Idk what to do. Has anyone stopped and started hormones again, or wanted to?