I’m fluid in the sense of liking both masculine and feminine things. I feel very comfortable with my deep voice and flat chest. I don’t hate my masculine face either. But I also wish I could have wider hips and thicker thighs like how women are depicted on tv and artwork.

One day I want to wear only men’s clothes and have my short hair. The next I want to wear my wig and women’s clothes and get my nails and makeup done. I don’t want to be recognized as just a man or a woman. I’m more fluid than that and it drives me crazy. I wish I could just pick one and stick with it or be comfortable with being androgynous always. I don’t like having two sides of my personality because I want everything to be straightforward and easy.