Hi,

I've been a lurker in the channel for a year now. I started T at 15, got a mastectomy at 17, then pretty much detransistioned at 17.5/18. I rushed into the whole process as a teen, without getting into the whole story. There was a lot of trauma and instability, I thought being a man would shield me from the pain of it all.
It's been 2 years now, and I really struggle feeling whole with my chest(of lack of). I routinely wear prosthesis, but it just hasn't felt enough. I moved to WA a year ago, and have been trying to find a clinic/surgeon. But it's been a massive and frustrating struggle, I have yet to find a psych/therapist and clinic that takes my de transition seriously. There is only 3 large clinics here, and each of them have either turned me down due to age, or because they haven't worked with detrans before. I don't know if I am going about this wrong, and if anyone has any good clinics/resources in the pacific nw. I am feeling very trapped, which is ironic since it is the capita of trans folk.