I have been off of testosterone for about 4.5 years. Socially detransitioned for 4. I did have a double mastectomy and even before I ever transitioned I “passed” as male. Was teased about having an Adam’s apple starting in middle school.

I finally started “passing” as female again when I grew out my hair.

And now I am losing it. I noticed way more hair in my hair brush, but my wife told me it was just because I was used to having short hair.

But now my part is noticeably thinning. And I’m losing hair towards the front of my scalp as well.

This is all that was saving me. I have hated having the long hair, but it meant not being harassed. Now I’m losing it.

My facial hair is growing faster and thicker than it ever did on testosterone. I am getting chest hair, which I did not get on testosterone. My menstrual cycle, which was barely a drop a day before testosterone, is now to the point where I go through a pad an hour.

I feel like my body does nothing but betray me. I see a Frankenstein freak whenever I look in the mirror. I am in despair and I have no idea what to do.