I have no idea what it is or why a part of my brain tries to convince me to transition again even tho it went horrible the first time and left me with body issues and a terrible fucked up horrid voice. Idk why my brain can still want something that went so horribly.

Also when I tell ppl this, a lot of ppl say “well you can be a masculine woman”, almost everyone says this to me including my mom. But I’m not even a masculine person though, so being a masculine woman literally would accomplish nothing for me.

As a trans man, I was a feminine man, and for some reason my brain is telling me that being a feminine man is better than being a feminine woman and I have no idea why. I think I have a subconscious belief that feminine men are better than feminine women. Where that belief would come from, I have no clue