I know im a human but i feel different from other humans in a way. I find myself at social events observing others thinking.. Damn humans are weird creatures. And when i talk to people im not close to i overthink everything i think how should i act/what should i say according to this human? I cant ever just be myself. I always try to fit in with other humans rather than not think about everything i do or say around other people. I also have a hard time wrapping my head around the concept that i have a physical appearance to others. Like wow.. I am a human i have a face and hair and my own appearance my own characteristics. Thats strange for me to think about. Im not sure if this is common. Like if the majority of people think like this or if it is depersonalization.

There was a point in my life where i used to lucid dream daily. And it got to the point where i didnt know if i was dreaming or if i was experiencing "real life". I would mix up the two and not be able to tell the difference. Maybe that made my derealization worse?