i’ve tried basically every single ssri/snri wellbutrin and all that. tried ketamine therapy, talk therapy of a few different modalities, as well as some adhd meds and abilify. i’ve made no progress and tend to not do well on these meds but im so suicidal and idk what to do anymore.

My dr wants to try emsam but i’m just worried about it since stimulants make my anxiety and anhedonia worse long term. i’d also have to come off of trazadone that i take for sleep and ive already tried and failed all the z drugs except for ambien. my dr wants to do serequel or olanazapine for sleep but i’m just really afraid of those drugs and im not sure it’s a good idea. i dont know im just looking for guidance i guess.