Hi guys I recently posted here about my suicide attempt

( https://www.reddit.com/r/depression_partners/s/sCM6lIaaet )

Following up I’m on medication and have told my partner

None of my family have even asked if anything wrong let alone has my wife/ partner told anyone or mentioned anything about it

Pretty much sits there on her phone doing online shopping and barely judges in conversation or any other way to help me out.

I also. Feel she’s hiding something still very strongly have a few things saved to my phone showing little things that all add up

I genuinely feel like 110% a failure and I’m just not remotely mentally prepared a fight or any further conflict or situation that could have an emotional impact on my life right now.

I’m on the verge of giving up And I’m not one to seek attention or even care for myself.

Just posting here was huge for me to get to Part of me is screaming out please don’t But most of me is tired Exhausted My body feels so empty and sick My head hurts so much I can’t sleep I have constant headaches The doctor told me I need to go get a blood test again as my white blood cells are practically gone I’m anemik and barely eating 1 meal. A day and I was 98kg 2 weeks ago I’m. Current 82kg

My partner has this sudden urge to get married this December 14 yrs we are more broke than ever

4 years ago at 24yra of age I purchased a $2m 6bed 4 bathroom home

And only now wants the wedding I’ve also seen lawyers searched in her brow see history But cleared in her devices. I think I’m going to start sorting my affairs out and start a will.

Thanks for listening guys wish you all the best