Everyday I want to do something, I really do, but the idea of setting up, getting supplies, going somewhere, is just overwhelming. I recently stopped taking my antidepressants because I thought I was in a good enough place in life, I guess I was wrong.

My partner, she has things that she's interested in, like rn as I'm writing this, they are fixing the motorcycle that they got. They also like to play with model trains, make things on the 3d printer, listen to records. I don't have anything, it seems that I currently only, watch TV, smoke weed, and have sex; those aren't fucking interesting, I used to skateboard, I used to make jewelry, I used to draw, I used to sculpt with clay. It all seems to hard now, I don't want to go outside or go to work, I just want to lay in bed or sit on the couch.

My partner feels bad that I'm bored, that I don't have things that I'm interested in. I've tried building a model car for a show I really like, but stopped halfway through because I had to paint parts. I've also been meaning to give myself a tattoo for the last 3 days and I haven't done it yet at all, I gave my partner one and now I can't seem to be motivated enough to give one to myself. Everything I want to do is to hard.