Depression is real ya'll...lowkey, I've been dealing with this since i was like 10 years old...im now over 30 and i swear i just can't take it much longer. I've tried everything i knew to try to somehow get these dark clouds from around me but shit just hasnt worked. It prob never will. And its like im not stupid, i always tell myself not to try and solve a temporary problem with a permanent solution. But this feeling is just taking such a toll on me and everything i do. Like soon as i feel like i might be finally standing on solid ground, it pops up like "nope, fuck you, you dont get to be *insert any positive word here". I dont know what to do or who to tell...so im telling you guys. Like i really need some fuckin help lol. (But not really lol).