Am I even worth being on this fucking earth, I tried to lose weight and fucked it up, two of my best friends are acting like their dating and given one was my crush and the other knew but it’s not that om not ok with it there fine it’s just fml since I just wanted love and attention and well he got it first as usual, and worse all I want to blame the girls i asked out in the past for saying no even tho I know in my heart they all had their reasons shallow or not but it scares the shit out of me that those feelings will take over one day and I’ll become an incel again which not only scares me but makes me worry about other aspects in my life and how they would fall apart if i fell back into old habits like I’m trying to lose weight and be happier and such but i.. just dont know anymore