The landlord wants us out in 3 weeks. I applied for two apartments yesterday and am anxiously awaiting to hear back. I have two small kids, boy and girl and cannot afford more than a two bedroom but I would never ask them to give up their spaces so I will not have a bedroom anymore. I’m fine with it but I feel like a failure.

I finally found a job and of course I start Monday. How am I going to work a new job, move to a new place and juggle two kids? (divorced 50/50 custody, I do not get child support either).

Also, I have been trying to leave my narcissist bf anyway and this is finally my opportunity and he is making it very difficult for me with his guilt and depression. He wanted to buy the house from the landlord but his credit score is really bad and I think he expected me to be a co-signer or to use my not much better credit score. But I didn’t offer and he didn’t ask so he wasn’t able to get the house(he was already living here when I moved in, I have no attachment or care for this house) and I feel his anger every time I talk to him (he’s out of town working right now). He totally resents me right now and will be passive aggressive on top of all of this and I’m too nice to say “fuck off you’re not moving with me!” I think he just assumes he is!

I have used up almost all of my savings. My mom is dead, my dad barely talks to me and he has never helped me in anyway. I don’t have any family except my sister who lives in another state. I’m sick of being poor and depressed and in a constant state of worry. Why am I alive if this is what life is?