I (29M) visited my aunt yesterday. And I have a crush on my cousin's friend. She is a radiant, pretty girl I fell for a few months back. I was motivating myself as I drove to my aunt's house to ask her out to drink or to dinner.

I instead learned that she was in a relationship. And I spent two days surronded by couples, being the only person alone which is a trigger of my anxiety and depression...

Add to that my uncle picking on me on some tastes of mine (I don't like rhum or seafood) and criticising my parents and even me... I just feel miserable...

I hesitated just driving in a tree on the way back...

Add to that, I just drove back to my parents house for the end of the year and my mom added yet another picture on the fridge of my great-cousin.

She has a friend's kid, my great-cousin,a young cousin, even the freaking pope and yet her own son isn't...

I just wonder if I've ever been loved in my life at one point...