I genuinely think I have nothing left to loose my wife is leaving me for someone else. My childhood dog is on his way out. My cat likes her bf more than me. And she’ll take the pit bull with her. I won’t say I’m innocent I cheated on her twice and she decided to stay I changed it all about me but when we made a friend he showed her more love in 7 days as her friend then I’ve managed to do as her SO in the last 7 years.. we got together my senior year of highschool and her junior we got married three years ago on Halloween 20 feet from where I proposed. The issue was we were in a long distance relationship and I got addicted to adult films and that lead me down a rabbit hole of self destruction. Now we live in the same house but sleep separately and she claims I have a chance to fight for her but she sleeps on face time with him every night. I’m more depressed then I’ve ever been and when we got into a fight where she told me not to hide my emotions. I dumped my emotions only to be told she can’t be my therapist.. I dont know what to do anymore I just wanted her presence and that was too much that made her a therapist also. I’m extra emotional because it’s the 11th anniversary of my best friends suicide on the 6th and the 9th which is today for me is the 18th anniversary of my grandfather passing away and it’s hitting me really hard today for some reason.