I’m a 31 year old father of an amazing 2 year old girl her mother and I were together for 7 years and engaged, but I have never been a faithful man. I suffer from anxious attachment style and have suffered from depression and anxiety all my life due to abuse, neglect, and poor early romantic relationships, I was never able to develop a sense of self worth and love. As a result I’ve been a serial cheater for most of my dating life even through this last relationship. It was never something I wanted but compulsively did because I never felt safe and secure, my ex loved me very much but I never learned to have open and honest communication with her due to all the shame and guilt I had for what I was doing. Because of that, I was never able to express my problem and tell her what it is I truly needed from our relationship. She caught me talking to other women almost 4 weeks ago and since then I’ve been in a downward spiral. We still currently live together until she kicks me out in October.. I’m struggling to cope with everything. She’s already started dating and has already had sex, She goes out some nights and doesn’t return home until I have to go to work at 5am all of this is adding to the pain I’m experiencing coupled with the fact that I’m about to lose my daughter. I don’t make enough to survive in my city alone as the cost of living is very high and will need to work 2 full time jobs 7 days a week which means I won’t have time to see her at all.. I just don’t know what to do, I love her mother, and never meant for any of this to happen I just didn’t know how to ask for help. I was so full of shame and self hatred. I started going to therapy the same week she broke up with me, I only wish I would have started before I ruined my life. I know I don’t deserve help but please I’m struggling so bad to make it from day to the next. I’m averaging about 2 hours of sleep per night and I’m not really eating anymore. I lost 12 lbs in the last week. 8% of my body mass.. I am not okay. 😖