I'm 34 years old my mom is 56 years old and she's dying because she drinks herself to death pretty much she was diagnosed with pancreatitis 13 years ago and just continue to drink the last 13 years and they told her that her organs are all shutting down three or so months ago 3 weeks ago she went into a home for hospice where she can be better taken care of. This morning the chaplain called me and said that she won't make it much longer. I don't have many friends or many people to talk to I was 2 days from being 4 years sober off of alcohol but I relapsed 5 months ago not using her as an excuse. I had an ex of 12 years and we have three kids together we've been apart for about 5 years because I couldn't stop drinking and I had an abusive and controlling behavior which only after the fact that I work on and get under control. They alcohol part I probably should get some help on and I know where to go I'm just I don't know. If anybody would like to chat preferably a female but anything works I'm an overly honest person and I haven't lied since I was 18 other then to my ex partner. I'm a Gemini I like to talk a lot. But if I don't know yet first usually I'll try to observe you and see how you interact with other people before I choose to interact with you but online or over the phone The strangers doesn't seem to have the same effect. I haven't been with anybody for 5 years I mingled in the first two or three years but after that everybody just seems like a headache or already have enough problems why do I want more LOL if somebody was in my area and wanted to hang out that would be cool Beaverton off of 170th and TV highway