My girlfriend broke it off with me a couple weeks ago, 2 weeks after being laid off from the best paying job I’ve had.

I’m having a very hard time coping. I don’t understand how it ended…we spent a year talking about getting married. How we wanted to be with each other forever… and now I have nothing.

She told me that there were times when I talked down to her like she was stupid, and overall, I wasn’t affectionate enough. I didn’t know either of these things were issues. I didn’t think I was doing either… I accept that I was the problem, but what I don’t get is how she wouldn’t want to work on them with the guy she said she wanted to marry.

We are still living together. I moved across the country because I thought she was the one. I dont have anywhere to go.

I get up every day and fight back tears when I see her. When I think of the songs she would play to show me how much she loved me. I’ve loved this woman for 13 years. She was, and still is, my dream girl.

Now, there is a void in me that I can’t fill. I don’t want to be here. I don’t want to be anywhere. I fucking hate it. I hate myself. I sort of just want out.