Where to even begin? I don't even know that much, but I guess beginning somewhere Is a start.

I (m34) believe I may have ADHD and as a by product of It, depression which I've been told Is common with people that have ADHD, before I say anymore, I'll try and list some reasons why I feel that I might have ADHD along with why I'm posting here.

I procrastinate, to an extent, uncontrollably and I DON'T KNOW WHY.

As the years have gone by, I've found It harder and harder to concentrate. At work, I often have to take out my phone and check my notifications, like compulsively. At home, I'll usually play video games every night and no matter what I play, no matter how much fun I'm having, I find myself constantly pausing to check my phone or scroll fb/twitter/reddit/etc

Work doesn't fare much better, I have to do things a certain way In order to satisfy my brain, even If It's to the detriment of productivity, thankfully It's not a HUGE problem, but my life would be SO MUCH BETTER If I could just do things as efficiently as possible.

Back to the bit about procrastinating. I'm a relatively clean person, like I'll clean up after myself most of the times, but there are exceptions and they bother the ever living hell out of me, yet I can't be bothered to take care of them...if that makes sense? Like the counter top where my coffee maker sits on, I've been telling myself that I should clean it, that I NEED to clean It for weeks now, but I somehow can't bring myself to do It. or that cereal bowl that sit's on my desk until my day off from work.

Even If I generally know what I want to do, I'll still just.....do nothing. There are days that I just come home, shower and than doom scroll twitter for 3 or 4 hours, before realizing that I wasted my night and that I should go to sleep.

I find It extremely difficult to get out of bed on most days. I do It because I have responsibilities, but I'll take any opportunity or excuse to go back to sleep, or just stay In bed longer. I usually have fairly decent control of myself In this regard, but I'm not perfect and I have called off from work a few times over the years, simply because of this.

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I've been like this for almost as long as I can remember, though It's just worsened over the years. Last year, my wife convinced me to finally go to the doctor. Bloodwork all came back normal, except for an Indication that I had gallstones In my gallbladder, which was backed up by a CT Scan. I mentioned the whole feeling tired/fatigued to my doctor and they didn't really think too much of it and referred me to a psychiatrist, which I than proceeded to look up online, saw a few bad reviews and noped out of It. I've tried taking several supplements over the years, Vitamin B, D, L-Thirosine and something else that I can't remember the name of.

I feel my quality of life just keeps tanking and I don't know how to even take a step In the right direction. Work completely drains me and life Is monotonous, but that latter half Is partially my own fault as well.

I'm sorry If this whole post Is completely and utterly all over the place.