I'm one of those "gifted children" who grew up not studying and getting good grades and that carried me all the way up until college where i failed everything because it didnt come easily to me and by then I had too much pride and no idea how to study... this lead to me moving back home and struggling to find work.

I've been looking for work and ive had a few jobs here and there but i always just have very low motivation now, I have no idea how to fix my motivation issues, is it something that can be handled with medication, maybe I should look within, or what. But tonight my mom argued with me about how i'm not trying hard enough and by the time she was my age she had 2 masters degrees and that she would throw my computer out the window if I dont find work in a week (shes the type to actually do it) and i kinda got frustrated and blurted out that without my ability to use my computer to create art and get my feelings out there, her words would've lead me to non-existence many years ago and then left the room before she could reply.

I feel that although this was the truth... I should not have told her this because it was a bit harsh, my parents are only tough on me because they want me to do well and thats how it's always been but i'm not like them, im not a tough person but it's the only way that they know how to parent. I love them but i think we are too fundamentally different. Should i just apologize?