Is it weird to want affection after a fight with your S/O? Every time I fought with my parents or family there was no affection afterwards, there was no follow up like let me talk with him and make sure he knows that he's still cared about. I hate talk about my feelings because all I feel like that's gonna happen is I'm gonna express it wrong and I'll just fight with my S/O. I just want something afterwards so I don't feel like I have earn the love back.

I have been trying to better express my feelings and emotions, hell I went to therapy for it for a year. I have been trying to be more expressive but goddammit I'm scared because now I'm not ok with certain things or dynamics in our marriage. And some if it is small but other times I feel like I can't get help. I know my wife help sometimes but I'm tired of asking for it just to be turned down 97% of the time.

I just want, to be better finally but after this, I just feel like I'll never get it right.