I’m barely getting myself and all my shit together after going to therapy for a couple of months. So I decided to go out yesterday and I met a woman who I had a one-night-stand with. Unfortunately the condom broke, but I noticed it right away, so I quickly pulled out and replaced it with a new one.

I couldn’t get sleep because I kept thinking about stds and why it had to happen the first time I got with someone after almost completely beating my depression.

So I looked up symptoms and sure enough I began having mild sweats, my body temperature rose a little, a mild headache and sinuses. Which apparently are symptoms of hiv. But I know symptoms would not begin to show just hours after exposure to an std.

So right now I think I’m about to break down in tears. Not sure how long I have to wait until I can go get tested or if my mind is playing tricks on me with the “symptoms” I had last night. I don’t feel like eating or exercising or doing anything really.

Any advice please? And thank you for reading this and any feedback.