I don't really feel sad persay but I'm just so empty in a bad way I don't understand really why I can't just vibe anymore I can't even sleep whithout some kind of white noise like a YouTube video or something or else I just sprile off into feeling worse I just can't vibe by myself anymore the only time I ever feel better is if I'm cuddled up whith somebody and there just happy I'm there last night I hung out whith a girl went back to her place and we just held each outher and it hit me that's the first time I actually felt happy sober in forever ik I should be happy whith just my self and all that but I'm not it's not even that I just want a girl or something and all that I just don't feel as empty and useless when someone looks in my eyes letting all my my bad thoughts wash away