Here lately iv been feeling down and out. Been hard on myself and just want to ball up and cry. But I don't. I just bottle it all up and I'm about to explode. My relationship of 8 years is boring, we're basically 2 anti-social roommates with a 6 year old. My partner doesn't clean cook or isn't very affection. I am the same way to so I can't really complain. I feel bad for our child because I feel like they're always bored or lonely.
We have no family around nor friends to go spend time with. And live in a small town where the closest thing to do is 3 hours away.
I work at a shipyard for 14 hours a day and I absolutely Hate everybody I work with. I get harassed and nobody seems to care what iv got to say.
Idk I'm just lonely I feel like all I do Is work go home and work. I'm getting fat. I quit brushing my teeth. I just feel like everything is going down hill with me. Iv gotten lazy with most things besides work.
Idk I just feel like I'm ranting now and not even making any sense. Basically I'm lonely,frustrated,bored,fat and I Hate myself. I don't know what to do anymore or how I could even motivate myself to do better and be better. Physically, mentally and emotionally.