I’m terrified of death, honestly I don’t think I’d ever be brave enough to kill myself. Still, I don’t want this anymore. I can’t die, my family and friends would be devastated. I just wish there was a way to end it. The responsibilities, the expectations, the hopes. I don’t want any of it, I don’t want anything. Money, friends, love, pleasure. I just want to end all of it, I want to live without anything, I just want to simply be here without having to do anything. And if that’s not how life works, then I don’t want to live. I don’t see a purpose in this, the gruelling tasks and hard work for something I don’t care about. I don’t want a job or a future, i don’t care for the betterment of humanity, I simply want to end it all and not have to do anything. I want to be free.