I hadn't been able to tidy up my home this whole month to the point where I was too embarrassed to let my house help come and see how bad it was. I eventually managed to organize things into piles enough to make it seem like I was reorganizing to explain the mess.

I deleted whatsapp and social media accounts. I just don't even have the energy to deal with people wanting things from me, even if its just asking how I am. I have nothing to say. Please move forward with your life.

My best friend insisted he would come visit me for my birthday. This will be the first time someone would be seeing me going through an episode. I hope that's its freeing. I just need one person who I don't have to pretend with.