I don't mean to make light of depression like it is something you turn on or off, but I had a weird experience. I was smoking weed and drinking and walking down a pier when my head just popped. I did not realize it at the time. I thrn flew bakc home, smoked some more, and while I can think of my negative thoughts, the negative feelings ar ejust not there. It is almost like I have cached memories of it like a computer, but negative-thoughts.exe are gone. Instead I came up with a goal that will probably consume 2 years of my life and will requir eintenese resources to pull off. But the failed relationship i got out of and plans messed up due to covid? Don't matter. It is hard to explain but I am not sure if it is depression protecting my brain or I am actually finally not giving a fuck, but all the nrgative thoughts seem gone. Has anyone had this?