Since COVID I’ve (23M) been living at home. I finished school and have been working remote for a year. I feel like life is flying by and I’m not enjoying it whatsoever. Other than my work, I have nothing to look forward to.

Every week is the same. I work, exercise, eat, vidya, read, sleep over and over and over. I have no friends where I grew up and all the friends I made in college don’t keep in touch. Been on and off OLD and went on a couple dates last year, but I’ve never had a girlfriend or really any intimate experiences with another person. I often feel like a loser and think that I’m just plain unlikeable sometimes. The friends I see now rarely if ever reach out to me. I try to be positive and upbeat when I’m around other ppl, especially because I’ve been told I look miserable all the time lol, but I don’t know if I really come across that way to others. I have trouble opening up to ppl, even family.

It doesn’t seem like my life will get any better. Ive been trying some self improvement tho: I have muscular dystrophy and have been going to physical therapy and am even weight lifting the past several months, but it’s barely helped tbh. I feel like I’ll always be alone. It doesn’t feel worth it.