i have been dealing with a lot of stress the past year: getting a new job, struggling with said job, making new friends, dealing with the stress of friendships, being physically abused at my job and experiencing burn out, quitting, being unemployed, dealing with financial stuff, essentially navigating adulthood

i thought i was doing okay

then this morning it all came to a head about 10 minutes after waking up i just got so overwhelmed and started to cry

i gave myself space to allow my feelings to flow then started to do my hair to distract myself

things progressively started to get worse throughout the day

i ended up having a panic attack and hyperventilating and hurting myself

it hurts more because i thought this part of my life, the depression, this sadness was done or at least manageable

now i’m in bed sick to my stomach crying unable to move