i dont know who to talk to. i really need help. ive struggled with severe depression for the past 2 years and i cant do this. i wish my parents would understand that the only reason i never want to do anything fun is because im ugly. my parents have always tried to set me up for success, but ive always tooken it for granted because i was always good at everything i did. my depression has overwhelmed me and has overcome my passion of doing the things i love. i used to love running cross country and track, playing soccer, and video games, but ever since i was in 6th / 7th grade, my depression has slowly overcame me and now i feel crippled inside. just this year i stopped running cross country and i didnt even attend the last championships jv / track meet 2 months ago because nothing makes me happy anymore. i went to lagoon in utah today and my parents made a four hour drive up for me and my sisters. i cant fake being happy just for a day, everything was fine getting there but when i got there i crashed. the truth is - i hate seeing other people happy, because im lonely. i dont have any friends. i havent had any friends in 4 months because my last "friend" took from me and used me. i wish i had friends because maybe i could be a lot happier like i was. ive always made bad friends though, and i dont know how to make good ones. ive been trying to, but i went to a private school so i really had nobody. everyone at my school kind of looked a little bit down apon me. seeing everyone at lagoon today made me feel like a total joke. everyone there was having fun, laughing with their friends, and all i could do was sit there. i didnt ride any rides because i hate all the people there and even though it was the slowest day of the week there, i still cant handle it. im ugly and i hate when people see the side of my nose. i have a doral hump on the top of my nose and when i was in public school, i got made fun of it CONSTANTLY. as well as the fact that im 90lb and 15 and skinny doesnt help. i hate living my life at this point now because at this point, im just burning all of my bridges without me even trying. i hate my life. i dont know what to do