Hey. I haven't done this before but I just don't know where to go anymore. I've been diagnosed with bipolar disorder all my "mature" life.(it was thought to be major depressive disorder when i was a kid) Recently I ended a 9 year old relationship with my girlfriend who i thought I was going to marry. Lightly stalking her insta and seeing almost no changes demolished me.

Also I had a call from a few friends of mine back in university that they're now leaving the country for a scholarship somewhere. I feel like everything and everyone is moving on and passing me by. I honestly don't think I deserve all of this. I feel isolated.

I used to be able to deal with separate events like this, but I feel like my life is now the ship of Theseus. I have no anchor in my past personality. I love my family but I just feel... Stranded. And my youth is being burnt up.

What do I do? Please help. I'm sorry if it was long.