I’m so extremely exhausted of living. I’m a senior in high school (18f) and never wanted to die more than I do now. I’m so embarrassed and ashamed of myself. I’m so fat and ugly and I truly just have no one. My parents have been going through a divorce for like 6 plus years and I’m fucking exhausted. I hated high school ever since freshman year. My siblings have it so much better than me and I don’t know what I did wrong for it to affect me so much more. I couldn’t even get into college. I got into some fucking shitty college that I’m going to have to go to that I hate and just want to fucking die. I don’t know what I did to deserve having to live this life. I’m so fucking jealous of all my friends who are going to top schools because that was supposed to be me. I was supposed to be able to continue playing soccer, have real friends, and go onto a great school. But no. I got none of that. My parents ruined that for me and just ruined me. They took away everything from me. The only reason I’m still here is that I’m afraid I will fail if I try to die because the only thing worse than this would have to be living after I tried to die. I just hate waking up everyday. I just want this all to end. I’m so sorry. I’m just so tired.