So i believe I am at my breaking point. I am 19 and I am working my ass off for literally nothing. Ever since I graduated, my daily schedule has been filled with just work. Its to the point where I barely have any friends (Practically none at all) On the times I don't work I just sleep till I get called in to cover someone's shift or until its time for me to go in. And I hate that I have to keep pushing for a paycheck that is just enough. I hate living just to survive. I want to live and be genuinely happy. I want something more to my life. But my hands are tied. And it sucks. I am genuinely tired of having to put up a fake smile and pretend that everything is peaches and sunflowers and just the greatest. I want to cry but i don't want my lover nor family to worry about me. I hate how I am now towards my lover because he doesn't deserve someone who treats him like shit. I genuinely dont know what to do about that but i believe thats for a different topic for a different reddit. But I am genuinely tired and I think I'm ready to give up any day now.